Its day again. It started out well, my friend/neighbor came by to ask me to go skateboard at Burnside around 10am.  Smoked some pot, had coffe and smokes, then tore up the skatepark for about 20 minutes. I love skateboarding but I have been so down in the mind that my passion for it fades quickly. I also hadnt eaten breakfast yet so a quick exertion of energy also made me want to stop. i went home and got my dog and took her to the park to just hang out and smoke bowls with 2 friends. the sun is out. i am now inside my apt again.

I have a list of crud I need to do, and want to get on it. perhaps I will after another cup of coffee and a few more cigarettes.

went out last night with a special group of friends, they are young adult christians. Im Jewish. My married friend Emily who I am in love with wnats to take me to her church so I can check out Jesus. She cried for me last night and told me she prays for me every day. No friend of mine has ever been that empathetic and loving and caring and concerned. I would be lucky to meet a single woman a fraction of how amazing Emily is.  We are true blue in our friendship, It is very unique.  I feel like she doesnt get the emotional connection she is designed for from her husband, but most certainly gets it from me.

we decided after something almost happened that we cant really hang out one on one, in order to respect her unfulfilling marriage.  Therefore i see her on an infrequent basis, yet she is always there for me, and I for her.  this is the person that makes me happy and has been since I met her 3 years ago.  I am extremely grateful that she is a part of my life blood in, blood out, I am very luckey,

I havent had my meds yet today, but Im going to have to go take them soon since Im starting to feel a little crazy.  I need to get things done today.  If i get an adequate amount of business accomplished today, I will reward myself by tattooing myself tonight.

0 Comments

Leave a reply

© 2024 WebTribes Inc. | find your tribe

Log in with your credentials

or    

Forgot your details?

Create Account