Well, I still got no job and I still got no money, so I've swallowed my ride and asked for help wherever I can get it. I got 2 of my car payments postponed, so that will save me $660 for the time being. I'm going to try to get rental assistance tomorrow. I got a medical assistance card from the county, which means my meds only cost $70 instead of $250. I can go to the doctor and the dentist for $10 too. I applied for food stamps. I applied for unemployment. I don't think I'll get it, but who knows?

I'm going to apply for disability because I haven't been able to work 6 months out of the last year. In addition to depression, I think I have stenosis in my neck that makes my arms and hands go numb. My brother has it, so I thinking it might be hereditary. My right knee locks up and gives out spontaneously sometimes, so i can't get a job where I'm on my feet. I have a really bad tremor in my hands that makes my handwriting illegible and I can't hold a fork without food flying all over the place. I take medication for it, which works, but it affects my memory. I'm supposed to get a brain MRI to make sure it's not Parkinson's. I hope the county will pay for it.

I just figure I've been putting into the system for 35 years, so I guess it's okay for me to get some benefits. I was even donating $50 a month to charity!

On the bright side, I sent out 6 job applications today. It's more time consuming than you might think because you often have to fill out an app online in addition to sending a resume and a cover letter. I'm going to clean up my room and sell some of my antique furniture because the room is overcrowded anyway. That should bring in at least $500, which will pay my rent for a month.

But oddly enough, I'm not feeling all that depressed, at least not today.