ugh Where to begin….

I havn't been on here in ages and I miss/need this place more then ever.

my OCD has been pretty great for the most part …. I should probably be on depression tribe because it's my depression thats eating me alive BUT this site and the people on it have given me so much support in the past it's the first place I want to run when things get bad. ( thanks everyone )

I feel unbelieveably alone, lost , like my life is out of control.

I have been taknig my meds regularly lately that was until the last couple of days . Finally got my insurance info yesterday so I stretched my meds out a couple of days so I could have them covered. I called the pharmacy today to give them my new ins info and fill my prescription … he told me he told me to hold a sec and he must have pressed the wrong button because I heard him tell someone to order a stirfry and cheesecake for him and the lady that works there and to call the order in .. then he said shoot I'm on the phone so you cant then he comes back to me and says I'm sorry I'll have to call you back we're very busy and I said ahh okay and he hung up …. I never heard back and when I called again no answer …. so here I am tonight with no meds and ready to crawl into bed and cry my eyes out. Dont get me wrong …. I'll be okay until tomorrow BUT Im beyond pissed and upset … I mean being a pharmacist he should know that antidepressants are NOT something people who are on them can do without . it throws everything off . and I'm on Effexor …. if I dont take my meds I hit rock bottom semi quick . ugh

Sorry again for the ranting it's been a terrible day .

Hope you are all doing much much better then me xox