realities of motherhood 

Disappointment 

Exhaustion

Heart break 

sentimental memories

feeling like part of your heart is walking around outside your body 

constant worry about them no matter what their ages

feeling their good feelings and sad

feeling protective and nurturing mixed with the adjustment  of not being needed in some ways by them

ability to cry on the inside 

the never ending help me do it myself stage some offspring seem to never outgrow