"I AM"

by Charlie G 

What comes out from my hand, is what's inside of my head;

Because then it's over, forgotten, I've put it to bed.

But some things don't stay in bed, they've been pushed in so deep;

They won't come out of your head, they will not go to sleep.

Mine started with fireworks, and the crowd they went wild;

With the birth of Joy, my beautiful child.

From the first time I held her, she then owned my heart;

And I thought, 'This is forever, we will never part'.

But life is a bitch, it will throw you for loops;

Though you do the right thing, you jump through the hoops.

Joy made it pass infant, was just into 'tot';

God, 3 years old, you didn't give me alot.

Please take me instead! I made all kinds of deals;

But I never was heard, in God's court of appeals.

I thought' 'This happened to me?! It was all just a ploy?;

To get me to love, then POOF, there's no Joy?

And not just to lose her, but in a recliner chair?

How could you do that? How could you dare?

Then came the pain. The anger, and hate;

Who is this God? That we think He's so great?

I don't know who You are, and I don't give a damn!;

I was screaming at Heaven, when He said just, "I AM."

I needed more from that voice, looking for where it came from;

Now down on my knees begging.. just like a bum.

When He spoke to me again, it was straight to my heart;

"Joy may not be with you, but your never apart."

He said "You'll see her again. One day. It's so soon;

Till then she's watching, from the stars & the moon.

Now listen to Me, this will help you to mourn;

"Joy picked YOU as her father, before she was born".

"She's done her job, and now it's your turn";

"Your going to help people, from your pain they will learn."

"They'll come angry and hurt, with no idea,  'what to do'";

"Because you've been there, you'll help them. You'll guide them through."

"And one final thing, call it a hint, or a clue,"

"By helping out them, you'll be helping out you!"

So when things happen, don't wonder, "How can this be?"

"Just know it's to get you to where I need you to be."

"Have faith! Trust in Me. Believe that " I AM."

"And I'll show you glimpses of you, in my Heavenly plan."

"Then He parted the curtains, and allowed me to see;

Why I lost Joy to a chair, and He allowed it to be.

I met a woman one day, while talking to groups;

About why things happen to us, though we jump through the hoops.

She 'just' happened to be there, the same day as me;

And now she knew who to thank, and I was set free.

She had a little sister, named Joy, who'd been caught in a chair!

But hers got out safely, because of something put there.

You see recliners aren't the same as once they had been;

They were changed after Joy, so that wouldn't happen again.

And at that moment I knew it, my path had been paved;

How cool is it knowing a Joy, that your Joy has saved?

peace