I fuccn hate everything and everybody. i fuccn hate life also. I have 2 beautiful children but im not happy. about a month ago i was kicked out the house with my 2 kids. Im currently staying with my daughters auntie while my son is at his grandma's house with his dad.(They have different dads). Well ever since then i've been pressured to find a place and a job. In the beginning everything seemed possible until 2 weeks ago. My online schooling was failing so i had to drop the classes so it won't affect my GPA. I've applied to a lot of jobs and not one has called me back. I was waiting on my financial aid to help get a place but that's looking like it'll never happen. I'm with my 2 month old while my son is with his dad and i feel guilty that i can't keep them together because of how stressed i am. Then there's the issue with my daughters dad, he doesn't have a job anymore and currently homeless he cant stay with us at his sis house because of some shit he did last year after i left to go stay back with my mom. He can't handle when i go into a depression episode because he hatess seeing me like that but it gets worse cuz he gets so angry for me slipping back that he adds to it with his outrages. now we're broken up for good and once again im a single mom now with 2 kids and 2 different guys. i have no job, no car, no house, and lil tiny bit of sanity left before i call to get locked away in a mental hospital. i keep trying to think of what is my next step where can i apply where can i live? and my mind just keeps saying there's no hope. i feel like there's no hope in anything for me. it's like I was plagued or cursed to live a fuccd up life with nothing for myself. I don't want to do anything anymore, i dont want to be a mom, i don't want to be a girlfriend, and i don't want to be me.