I feel like I am never going to make any progess….
Driving with my niece in the car to go shopping for her trip to Florida….On the phone with him….Some guy in weird gas mask and driving a work truck was looking into our car making a weird face….I was making a funny comment by saying, "look at that guy, trying to look at us", to my niece….He all of a sudden flips out on the phone yelling, "Thanks, why dont you have a good night….goodbye!!" I was like are you kidding me right now….."You know I hate when you tell me guys are hitting on you, but you do it anyway! You dont care, you are rude and disrespectful!" I dont think I can deal anymore…I did nothing… I was cracking a joke with my niece…. I was not being disrespesctful…I am not that type of person….. I apologize bc I don't know what else to do to ease the situation…..THe night goes on…..He has practice for his church band…..I was hanging with my niece, walked to her friends house, took some pictures of me with my dog and sent it to him…He asked where the picture was taken, so I told him. At my nieces friends house, on the porch… I text him for most of the night, saying hi and that I missed him….Giving the reassurance everyone has been telling me to give….So finally practice was over and he calls me….The first thing out of his mouth after he says hello, is "where was that picture taken." My response: " I told you, at Cass's friends house." Not in a bad way, not with an attitude. Just basically starting the sentence with I told you, bc I had told him….. And he goes off again….Goodbye…! Hangs up on me and then goes on to text me 5 texts about how I am rude and he cant deal with me anymore, he doesn't deserve to be treated that way and how he was looking forward to talkin to me and has to deal with my disrespectful attitude. So i try to explain that I meant nothing by it…It was just conversation…It was just normal, and I would say it to anyone….Its not just about him….My life is not made to make him miserable….. I feel like I try so hard and it will never be good enough…..He finally calls back later and mentions nothing about the fight at all…..Talks normally to me about our night for about 25 minutes and says he loves me and goodnight…..Why??? Why cant he just aviod the fight by biting his tongue sometimes….Will I be spending the rest of my life explaining myself?? Walking on Eggshells? Being told I am rude, selfish and disrespectful? When I am cetainly not??!?!?!