Recently has been hard for me. It’s coming up on one month since his passing, and this holiday season is gonna be hard. Sometimes i would go up during christmas, like a little after, and spend time with my aunt and uncle. I’m going to my aunts house on Saturday, we’ll next saturday, and i’m terrified. That’s the place where he did, where his last moments were. I told my aunt i can’t spend the night, and so my parents and i are only spending the day. I want to go to therapy, but i’m scared to tell my parents i want to. I just miss him so much, and want him here with me today.