I went to town today, but the last time I went out was on Saturday. I noticed I don't feel good. I don't think there is anything I can do but wait until I feel better. Too many things to deal with at home and I want to get away. I'm behind with things.

The frogs made some more frogs spawn.

It just started raining. When I move, I think I will get somewhere with a view. House with a view, although if I'm looking out from one of the rooms, it will be a room with a view.

Also it's my birthday on Friday and I will be 49. My mum invited me down. I'm not sure what I will be able to do then or when I will be ready to drive there anyway. If I get enough money I could fly somewhere. That would be fun.

life can change, as long as we change our thinking and feeling about ourselves and life and it can even change anyway, as it does.Just think and feel about the life you want and attract it to you. It helps to feel good and feel love too. I know that can seem a lot to achieve when you are feeling down but just do it when you can. Another thing is to like and love yourself which is important to do. Make yourself happy and then you radiate that to others. Look after yourself. It is others responsibility to look after themselves too, assuming they are capable of that. What I mean is, don't get used by others and don't sacrifice too much of yourself to others to the extent that you are drained and left without. Giving is good, though there is a balance.

(Those were some thoughts based on what I was reading yesturday) I'm learning more and putting things into practice. Such as changing negative thoughts about myself and my life into positive thoughts.

Okay, I hope you are all doing fine. I'm sure that on the whole you are a lot more capable than you realise. Maybe we need to put more effortinto ourselves and out lives, then we will be surprised at the good results.