i’m doing so bad today. my whole family hates me and my parents compare me to my siblings all the time and how i’m not good enough. i’m a burden to everyone i encounter, my family, my friends, even myself. there is no point to life i’m really just done with everything and everyone depression and anxiety have taken over my life i feel hopeless. there’s never gonna be an end to this i’m gonna forever suffer so what’s the point i might as well just kill my self and get it over with. at this point i’m scared to be living i’m just so miserable all the time everyone sees it and judges me when they don’t know what’s really going on. they judge based on how you look and whether your being “fun” or not and then they talk about you to everyone and it makes everything 10x worse. and school makes is just so bad, the students, the teachers, the building it self makes me want to go to sleep and never wake up. i need to be free again and happy. but being happy scares me, i feel like there’s no end to my sadness. it’s just going to keep getting worse.