“The New Begining” it could be the title of my next book or this next phase of my life. For 8 years I’ve been battling depression. Twice I’ve hit bottom, several breakdowns, then there were times where I was okay. I was on shaky ground but I was okay. During that I wrote two books that made it possible for me to survive my constant battles and the ordeals in my personal life. Those two books have now been published and that concluded the 8 year chapter. Writing this new book; something I’m doing slowly because I’ve been on deadlines since I was 15 and I’m on a hiatus. I’m writing in such a different place- a place I’d never could be. When I started writing my first book, I was a kid who had no idea what they were doing. I was also in survival mode and knew if I didn’t write this book I was going to die. Either the illness was going to kill me or I was going to kill myself. Back then, I was struggling to survive and now I’m not. For the first time I’m not fighting for my life which is so strange. I’ve been on survival mode it’s an adjustment not to be on survival mode. This new book is another part of my life that I’m willing to explore as I’m going into the unknown. This is the first time where I really don’t know what I’m doing next. I’ve always known what I wanted to do which was to be an author and I’ve done that. I’m not in a mad rush to publish anything considering I published three books back to back. The unknown in scary but maybe I’m ready to step into it just to see where it goes.
The New Begining
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