My mother comes over to the house today and as usual gives me a panic attack five minutes after she comes in the door. Your sister has MRSA infection, your grandfather is probably dying, I don't know how much more I can work, when are you going to be able to start paying for things, we are all going to be in trouble if your grandfather dies because he pays for everything. I hate HATE HATE being dependent upon her for anything, I know I should be gratefull that she lets me live in this crappy house rent free and she pays all the utilites but there are so many strings. The house is full of her crap and I can't move anything or change anything, the roof leaks, the bathroom is full of mold, there is no insulation so it is roasting in the summer and freezing in the winter. Yet they buy my sister another house with a garage and brand new fence and two bathrooms. They bought her a trailer with her first marriage and another house with her second, she left the house she had with her second husband and rented it out and said it was too far from town. So they buy her another one! She has a full time job with benefits and I have two part time minimum wage jobs. I have nothing from my divorce because I was an idiot and lost my children as well.
Sorry I know this sounds like so much bitching and my new husband says that it won't change anything but it is so hard sometimes to keep going. The only person in my family that loved me was my grandmother and when she died that was it. My mother has always treated me like everything I did and said was wrong. What did you do to yourself now, why did you do something so stupid, how did you make yourself sick, etc. etc. Everything always my fault. Big surprise me ex was able to mess with my head so bad.
Thanks for letting me vent it helps so much.