Question have you ever asked god for something and he gave it to you but you still wasnt satisfied?

or you were satisfied but someone said something about your accomplishment and you wish you had more?

this is my story i have been critized all my 23 years of age i bust my ass and kept failing but once i put it in gods hands everything was ok. i keep having this dream that i have a nice body big chest big muscles, nice calfs a tattoo of a cross on my upper thigh i have a great job beautiful condo a dog no friends and no mate.

now in the dream i had a maitnence job at night and a advertisiment job in the morninf so i was a work aholic. so far i graduated and have a job but its not in my feild im blessed but i feel like there is something missing.

this morning i was ready to die because i lost hope i felt invisible like life is just passing me by.

everyone is getting married, and having kids and i still live at home with my parents i didnt tell them im part time and my job has budget cuts. and when i told this guy i liked tht i was working where i work now he was mad and was lke get a better job but its hard i been lookng for months . i sont know what to do i want the maintanance job that pay 17 dllars an hour but im afraid to get in a fight with my dad because i went to school for computers. then if  get the tattoo im afraid he might see it. i guess i worry too much but then at the same time i just lost all my frends so im still trying to deal with that i know you guys love me but i dont get to see you guys and im ardly on the computer anymore.

i think i ready for god to come back but at the same time i feel that he will bless me in a big way its a blessing now that im here talking to you guys but at the same time i dont want to give up but i feel my life has no piont im just existing and not living and i want to be happy but my moods swings always think negative and i have knowonw to talk to just text you guys and i  dont want to be a burden