So i dont really know how blogs work-i dont even know how this website works.but i needed a rant and i didnt want to put in a forum where im looking for an answer a reply that will magically make me feel better..i just want a good clean rant and then its done-

i developed serious anxiety and depression 3 months ago-although it feels like 3 years.i also dont know whether it is severe?but boy it feels like it to me!

im trying to finish a degree in dentistry and i used to be one of the brightest people in my class.this anxiety and depression has robbed that of me.yes im still in final year struggling through but exams will expose me for the failure ive become…i sit in tutorials now and i used to be the one able to answer out-the one with all the knowledge.now-i stumble over my words, my mind goes blank, i seem unable to formulate sentences.

i feel alone, i feel trapped in my thoughts, i feel hopeless and im sick of it-

BUT

i have the worlds most amazing family who i love more than life itself and i get up every day for them, to make them proud and its because of them that ill get over this little blip on the road called life and i will succeed.

what doesnt kill us makes us stronger.

one day ill be living proof of this statement i just know i will 🙂

rant over-hey that wasnt as angry or as rant-y as id planned, what i forgot to say was…

THIS ISNT FAIR

THIS SHOULDNT BE HAPPENING TO ME

MY LIFE WASNT MEANT TO TURN OUT LIKE THIS

but thats just the way the cookie crumbles….

just wish i could have a wee shred of happiness at the minute though- i see from forums etc people with anxiety saying i love doing this or i like doing this or i enjoy this-eh what the heck is wrong with me that i cant enjoy anything?!unfair!but maybe it will return in time!

peace