Haven’t been on in a while, but I’ve been wanting to reach out… I feel tired. No let me re-phrase that. I feel exhausted. Like just mentally exhausted.. I feel like in my head I’ve been running a marathon and then stopping for like a day and then running another marathon. If that’s the case, it feels like I’ve run about 20 different marathons in my head already. Like my brain is just constantly running, running running…. thinking, thinking, thinking. I can’t turn my brain off, I can’t calm down. It’s so hard to relax and wind down. I’m so mentally tired, like I just need some respite, even if just for like 10 minutes. But I don’t know what to do. I’m so used to being on the go, both physically and mentally.. my mind just running and thinking about everything. I just need to stop, just have a blank mind and just have some complete silence.. just to think about absolutely nothing for a little bit.
I’m burnt out, but I don’t know how to calm down. I suppose I can try some meditation again… or maybe some medication… or possibly a vacation. Actually I would all 3: meditation, medication, and a vacation.
Somewhere nice and warm, somewhere tropical. Where I can sit on a beach alone and just relax.. truly relax underneath the serene blue sky. Feel the hot sun beating on my skin and smell the salty sea air. That would be a nice break. Kay, well I’m going to go. I suppose I’ll try to calm down. Maybe I’ll take a bubble bath and try some meditation and then I’ll try some deep breathing and go to sleep.
Have a good night, friends!