Since I was a small child I knew I was a boy. The world has worked long and hard to change my mind and mold me to their ideas about who I should be. I’ve spent my whole life fighting to be who I am while placed in a role of being someone that I am not. I’m tired. I’m unhappy. I just want to be me. It’s past time. Life is too shortt. I want to be (and be seen and accepted as) the man I am. Some say it’s never too late, some say why bother, if you only have a few years or decades left to endure? Because I’m tired of enduring, I want to live. I want to feel like I am me. Like I can be who I am and have it be okay. I want to find happiness, and I can’t do that if I don’t love myself. I can’t look into a mirror and do that as a woman, no matter how I dress or cut my hair or act, it’s just not me. It doesn’t come natural. I just want to be comfortable.
So, you are trans but you can’t find a way to feel like yourself. In a way, I know how you feel. So, I would suggest that you find things that you enjoy and peruse those. Next, I would find others who also enjoy those things (if you haven’t already) and interact with them. However, something tells me that you are an introvert. Because of that, I would want to wait for someone to approach you. Just try to act natural, and don’t try to act like other people.
That sounds very reasonable to me, Sean. Of course you want to live as your true self! I think it’s inspiring that you’re claiming that very human right. Whoever says that you’re too old or it’s too late or whatever is a moron. Ignor’em. Wishing you luck and joy in your transition. xo