I have a desire above all in life. The desire to carry my own child. To feel that closeness. Have that experience. Ever since I was a little girl I have dreamed of that. Of nursing my own child. Motherhood has always been my unachievable dream. Or is it.

I read an article last year predicting that within the next 10 years, perhaps as early as within 5 years, trans women will be able to experience pregnancy and childbirth. Doctors in India have been testing uterine and ovarian transplants in trans women with good results. .

Does that mean I will finally get to be a mother? Perhaps. But perhaps I am doomed to forever be bound to that desire and never get to experience it for myself. Yes Trans women can nurse babies. I could always adopt an infant and breastfeed it. But it wouldn’t be the same. Just my thoughts this morning.