To My Aunties.

I know you will never get this letter, but i want to write anyway. I wish i had the courage to say this to you in person, but alas, i'mnot that strong.

Sandra: You are my mothers little sister. I don't know what the hell your problem is. I know you and mum were never close, you treated her like crap. Infact you never spoke to me nicely either. Its strange that I got along so well with your daughters. Yet look at that now. You have single handedly split our family. Are you happy? I bet you are. I bet your all happy with your new husband, grandkids.. oh yeah life is good for you. Yet mum still gets upset about what you did. I've heard that you have asked people "why is it such a big deal?" Really? are you that thick? Scott is my SISTERS FATHER for FUCK SAKE! yes thats right. So do you not see that you are now actually you NIECES STEPMUM! yet you can't see anything wrong with that. Wow. You know I thought I was dumb, but honestly i don't think i've ever came across someeone who is as selfish as you. A is now 16 and we still don't know how to tell her about what you've done. I was so mad when i found out about you and Scott. So mad. Thats why I went and keyed your car that night, and graffitied your fence, and prank called your house into the early hours of the night. That was many years ago now, but i could never ever regret doing it. The only thing I regret is the fact that you ran to POP to fix it for you. Something i should have thought of earlier. I know you will get whats coming to you, and i simply can't wait till you move to Melbourne. As far away as possible would still be too close. I now can't talk to my cousins. Your daughters. I remember being so close to R especially, yet now I don't even warrant an invite to her, or S's wedding. Even if i did, i wouldn't go. Just to save myself causing trouble there. Remember those big christmas dinners we had? every year we'd have a huge table full of food, the whole family around, laughing, having fun? well now its just Mum, A, nan and pop and myself. Yep thats us now. You are too weak to even show your face to me now. Shame? I'm sure it is. Do you see what you've done to your mother and father? how you've torn their heart out.. trying to not play favourites? Do you not feel guilty at all? I don't know how you can live with yourself. You are… no words discribe my hate for you. Oh and how you send R. to the psych ward to see me, heavily pregnant, the first time i went in. That was just brainchild right there. Sending an emotional hormonal woman to see me. Yeah cheers for that too. I remember that day she invited me to her baby shower.. yet she never contacted me again with the details. Guess it runs in the family huh? I hope little B, A,- geez i don't even know the name of the other baby.. grow up away from you. I know that wont happen though.

To Su. You are very clever. Oh yeah i see it. You are very smart. Very manipulative. You play on us to get what you want. Guilt trip everyone. The only reason you wanted to know about nan in the hospital, was so you would know if you had a babysitter for my beautiful little cousins. You've guilt tripped me in babysitting many times. On christmas day.. you remember that? Yep babysitting. I love my little cousins dearly, and yeah, sure i'd love to look after them.. and so does nan, she loves looking after them.. but NOT EVERY SECOND DAY!!! FFS!!! And you're saying you want more?? Luckily i know auncle A has had a vasectomy. I know you'd guilt him into having more.

I don't know whats wrong you with you guys. I don't know how i'm even related to you people.