Just a small overview of why my life sucks sometimes. There is this girl that I liked and she liked me back, we got together for about a week and then she blew me off because of many reasons (reasons that were completely stupid in my book). The thing is, I don’t take heartbreak very easily. Like at ALL. I was posting things that were related to it just because that was my way of getting it out. Plus my family had no idea I was dating her (a.k.a my best friend). She was getting all mad about it, telling her friends that I was being all immature and that “Girlfriends suck, don’t get one.” Like, are you serious? You are the one that came to me when you wanted to tell me that you didn’t know what to do about your feelings toward me. You are the one that made a move first. Like don’t tell me that they suck when you’ve only dated one girl. One fricking girl, and that one girl was me. We were supposed to last longer than a week, we were supposed to last till I graduated. I told everyone that we were super happy to be together, and now all I tell them is how sad I am that I lost my best friend all because I wanted to date her.

We keep telling eachother that we miss eachother, and that we wish things would go back to the way they were before we told eachother we liked eachother. but we both know that they will never go back to the way they were before. It just isn’t possible. but yeah, my life sucks because I lost the one person I really love and care about, and it’s been hard for me to have any hope that I will actually find someone.

I know i’m super young, but still I want to be able to find someone that I can have fun with, and stay up late at night and watch movies and just hang out. (I want that before I go into the coast guard, before I get called to go in, before I’m out at sea for weeks at a time.) I just want all of that before my life actually happens.