Hello. I am new to this forum and an looking for support. I am middle aged and from the outside my life looks pretty normal. I am married for over 20 years, the mother of 2 teenagers, and have a great job. However, I feel very lonely and depressed recently. My job is very emotional and basically revolves around death and dying. Sure doesn\’t make me feel any better emotionally. I spend a lot of time alone, and I think that is a bad thing, because my thoughts get away from me and I end up feeling crappy. I exercise, have pets, and try to remain optimistic. But lately I feel so blah and wonder what my issue is. I can\’t wrap my head around it and feel as though nobody understands, and to be honest…I hide my sadness very well to  the outside world.