Flat out tired ~ washed out, color free. But yet I cannot sleep; the hours creep by and sleep still evades me. Stupid Abilify; not even OTC sleep aids can help with this now. Maybe I need to take another pill ~ it says up to 2 and I only took 1.
My mind is whirling again with thoughts of what needs to get done tomorrow; teach violin lesson, pick up pills, go to the petstore for a sweater for the dog and rabbit snacks, go to Wal-Mart for groceries, do laundry, vaccuum the house, etc… Why if I've bottomed out is this still happening? I'm ready to strangle my doctor for putting me on this stuff ~ it seems to be causing rapid cycling in me. Every day I'm different or can change almost instantly. I started bawling tonight in the middle of a funny show that I like. What the heck?
So I talked with the tattoo artist today. I looked at his work and was enamored. He's definitely the guy for me. He does a beatiful job melding colors so they flow into one another. That phoenix on my page is something I've been wanting for a long time. It will serve as a reminder that no matter how many times I fall, I can always get back up and try again. Yes, I promise I've thought it through. It might be a Christmas present to me from my husband ~ we'll see. Tomorrow I go see him to show him the image and see what he can do and give me an estimate. This won't be a large tattoo, about the size of my palm is all. It will go over my heart.
I want to send out a special thanks to Jasper tonight for saving me from my own self-pity tonight. Thank you so much. I appreciate it more than you know.
Other than that I'm cold and I'm going to TRY to go to sleep again. Maybe some yoga breathing will help.
Goodnight all and sleep well. ~ Key