You can always try to fit in and never feel like you really belong, have you ever asked yourself that tough question, why?

I find myself desperately searching for the answers online and watching every lesbian show or movie I can find on YouTube. I know the answers aren’t there and it just confuses me even more or makes me want to have something I know I can’t have in this life. There’s so many problems in the world and what would one less person be if I disappeared from this earth. I know it’s selfish considering that, that’s a very self- involved way to make things easier by simply taking myself out of the equation.

I dont even even know what I’m writing at the moment and if it even makes sense. This is my head at the moment. I constantly shut people out but long for someone to actually understand me.

Searching, lost and confused!!!