so i went to see my gp for a much needed referral to a psychiatrist and/or the regional mental health service. i graduated from the DBT program in 08/10 and have not had my case reviewed by a psychiatrist or indeed any contact from the mental health service since. yeah that's 20 months and i'm not feeling too good, mentally or physically. i need some help. so i sought it.
while there i asked my gp for some diazapam or similar to control my mounting anxiety and distress at my inability to be seen/heard by a mental health professional (as well as the recurring emotional issues that make this neccessary) she replied that it was not advisible to prescribe valium when i was having suicidal thoughts.
i and my partner (who was in there with me on this occassion) both told her that he controlled all my prescribed medications for just such a reason = attempted suicide on valium would not occur. still no go and no offer of an alternative. i was pacing the office in tears by this point.
he explained that i needed something to calm me down without knocking me out completely and would take the prescription from her hand himself.
we also asked her to pull up my records which clearly list diazapam as a recommended short term medication to treat the anxiety symptoms i was describing (and by this stage exhibiting). she didn't have time.
i then asked for a script for ten only 5mg tablets as i know they work for me and i felt that i was in genuine need of them. she told me that she would not prescribe me even one tablet but would make a note on my file that my partner could give me 200mg of seroquel in the evening. end of discussion. thanks for coming.
the very same doctor gave me a prescription for 100 x inderal with two repeats without even taking my blood pressure just 2 weeks before.
my last suicide attempt (in 01/10) was from an overdose of inderal. i took the whole bottle and spent 5 days in ICU.
makes me wonder…..