Getting through Friday, March 31st was a little tough for me. It was originally my plan to propose to my ex on that date. My thinking was that I would propose to her on that date and then the next day, which was April Fool’s Day, I would post a picture of the engagement ring on her hand. I would title the post “she said yes” or something like that. I’m notorious for playing April Fool’s Day pranks, especially on Facebook, so most people would have thought it was a joke. The real joke would have been that it wasn’t a joke.
But alas, it wasn’t meant to be. Maybe on an alternate timeline or universe it would have happened.
So now I’m trying to continue to recover. I’m doing better now than I was before, but I still have my good days and bad days. I’m really focusing on taking life one day at a time. I know it sounds cliché’, but it’s what I’ve had to do. I’m also trying to remind myself what I’m grateful for. I really do love my two dogs. I honestly wouldn’t be writing you this if it weren’t for them. When I needed them most they gave me purpose in life. It’s nice to come home and have them give me unconditional love. I never have to worry about them changing their feelings for me. I also have a solid support group. I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for the people in my life. I admit I lost a lot of contacts when Depression Tribe changed over. I was hoping to reunite with my old connections, but I still haven’t run into them on this new site. Changes, right? I am grateful for Delane here on the site. She’s been my biggest supporter and gives me hope that there can be a new beginning here.
That’s what i need to tell myself is the story of my life right now…