Some times i get so stressed and it gets hard to breath and sometimes I think of the passed and what has happened to me when that happens my brain gets all worried and confused and iḿ not happy also sometimes i feel so numb i hurt myself and at those times i can’t function like i should. so then I go back to when i was happy and when i was care free when iḿ little i feel so happy and like i can do anything and nothing can stop me it´s like all the clouds in the sky are now pink and not blue and all the trees are now all white and not black and the flowers now have color and the people around me have faces it´s almost like when iḿ in little space i see the world in some one else´s eyes because big me would not  see the world like this but then when I have to be big me again I have to stop being little and that makes me feel empty again and makes me feel alone but at least I can do little space again.