I know I’m not ill & that all these symptoms are just “anxiety” – but knowing something doesn’t necessarily mean knowing how to fix it??????
Although I had decided to move anyway to try build a new life, since my life in SA no longer had any possibility or “hope”. Some of this due to the political & security situation, but I cannot deny my motive was primarily to be with my Luv … although had no idea where it may go from there – after all she WAS STILL A MARRIED WOMAN!!!
BUT THEN !!!!!?????
I also want to add, that on one or two occasions when actually speaking on the phone, I had even said “hi” to Ln who had joked around & playfully teased about our relationship … so it was pretty safe for me to assume (I thought) that our relationship had the “seal of approval” from Ln…… my Luv’s best & closest friend!