i've never written a blog, but i think it's important to get my story out in the open. let's see it all started my beginning of senior year. i know right? what a horrible time. the time when society reflects as the best year of your life and for me it hasn't been so great. so there i am sittin in statistics i get up to do a group assignment the whole class is spinnin i feel some kind of outer body experience. i try to brush it off and go to the next class. next thing i know my whole body is goin numb, the class is spinnin, my stomach turnin, and i feel like i'm gunna throw up or worse die. i ask the teacher to let me go to the nurse he says, " wait until after the quiz." i start shakin, thinkin in my head this is not normal somethin is seriously wrong i need to get out of this room. he finally lets me go. (he's not a bad teacher, he just didn't realize how badly i felt.) anyways this continued on for weeks, so finally i decided to go through all the tests; mri, ultrasounds, blood drawn, ect. the ultrasound and blood showed nothin, the mri however showed that i have chiari malfunction. that was a lot to take in. although it is not active it's still there which is a little uncomfortable. i'm just happy it's not active. i think back now and i see all the symptoms were there for anxiety and panic disorder. i mean in the summer i would get severe stomachaches for weeks at a time, i even threw up once for no reason. i was diagnosed with general anxiety and panic disorder just 2 months ago and i feel like i'm already makin progress. it was so scary to me just to think about these things just a month ago. to me it seems like you have to be in a certain state of mind to accept whatever comes at you and for me this was difficult. i've learned sooo much through anxiety. i do everyday. it taught me not to take the little things for granted. in the long run i feel like a stronger person because i have to battle these things everyday. although i still haven't gone back to school i'm being tutored which is workin quite well for me. hopefully sometime this year i can go back, but anyways this is my story, of how anxiety is new to me and a challenge i hope to overcome!