All the medicines I take at night usually get me to sleep pretty quickly but after 3 hours or so I always wake up. Always. Then I go back into a light sleep for an hour or so. Then my dreams are completely highjacked by anxiety. Its just one nightmare after the other. Lately I\'ve just been getting up at 3:30 or 4 because I\'m less panicked awake than in that light, nightmarish sleep. That\'s the terrible thing. I\'m able to sleep usually but the last 2 or 3 hours of the 6 or 7 set aside for sleep are just unimaginably horrendous. This has been getting worse and worse over the last few weeks and I\'m convinced that it has to do with the whole 10 year thing that I mentioned earlier. I\'m not conssciously aware of it but my mind won\'t let go of the "10 year reunion".

On Fiday night I tried having a few drinks to get some solid sleep but the same thing happened. The booze knocked me out for 4 hours – I was asleep on the couch and then I went to bed and went back to sleep and again with the fucking nightmares. So I just got up after about an hour in bed.

I\'ve had problems with sleep since I got out of the army, but I have never had panic attacks in my sleep before. I mean I wake up needing to run to the bathroom to puke b/c the intensity of the panic is so bad.

Does anyone else have panic attacks in their sleep? I\'m going to talk to the doc. about this tomorrow. Hopefully there\'s some advice he can give me. Maybe when I first wake up at 1 or 2 I\'ll need to take so more medication. Idk. I\'m sick and tired of these gd nightmares. 5 years since the whole thing ended and in sleep everything is still as vivid as if it were 5 minutes ago. sorry for ranting. I\'m really tired.