I found this page while looking for people going through the same struggles as me.
I was told in 2016 I have OCD depression anxiety and it all happened right after my son was born I should have been over the moon bursting with love and excitement but I everything changed I changed !
I am now at an all time low in my life I now struggle with day to day tasks
if I don’t need to leave my house I won’t and I feel like how am acting will start to have an effect on my son.
I find my self sitting in the dark and silence more than normal I find it hard to be around a lot of people groups of friends , work , family members I feel like everyone looking at me waiting on me to flip my lid as I have been losing it a bit more everyday
I am angry very angry with no answers to why I could be this angry
I live my life by the clock I set it all out in my head the night before and what I have planned needs to happen on the time and we can’t run late or early and its hard with a 3 year old who wants to enjoy life while I have him stuck to me and he doesn’t understand why mummy is so crazy I don’t think I fully understand what’s going on my self
Hiya, I am not going through anything that you are and do feel for you, but I do suffer with anxiety brought on by losing my mum, do u know that it is not your fault on how you feel and maybe brought on through your pregnancy but it lack of chemicals to your brain that’s needs to get back in balance, are you on any antidepressants? If you are go ask for a higher dose or try a new one, I do struggle some days but try focus on the good things and don’t beat yourself up if u are not happy all day every xxx
I feel this in my soul I’m going the exact same thing
All of my emotions changed after pregnancy. My emotions never went back to “normal” I have has to push myself for years. For me I was able to use my kids as my strength to help me get better. Everday is hard though and I take it moment by moment.
It’s ok that your son sees you struggle, what’s important is he sees you rise up, trying your best every single day. Some days you will do better than others. Be kind to yourself.
I am myself having a hard time right now and I am doing my best. Positive affirmation audios have helped me when I can’t silence the negative thoughts in my head. Hang in there!