I don't understand anything anymore. I just don't know what to do. it seems like everybody around me is getting everything they want. i have been going through alot in the past 3 months. i have been kicked out the house even though i have a 1 yr. old son. ive broken up with my son's father because things were getting worse and worse and becoming more physical everytime we argued. on valentine's day i winded up going to jail for 3 days because of me and baby daddy got into a physical fight to the point where i left marks all over him. that's when i realized we would never get along. a month later my mom kicked me out and i stayed with my friend a week later i told her i was moving over there and she offered to keep my son while i get a job and save to get my own place. then i was told that she might try to get custody of him. then went over her house and we got into an argument and she called the police on me. then 2 weeks later i moved from my friends house to my boyfriends sister house. now im going through drama that could've been avoided by the i used to stay with. i just don't understand imm trying to do good and better for me and my son but nothing is going right its just going worse. then my boyfriend just got a job and feel so fuccn fuccd up because we both have been looking for jobs together and he gets hired and not 1 job has called me. so i feel like nothing is going right for me and that im a useless mother how can i take care of my son if i cant even take care of myself on my own. ugh!!!!! my life suxx the only good thing i got out of my life is my son. i just want to scream!
Pain is my pleasure
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