so yesterday i was helping my grandma clean her apartment when i had a panic attacks it was a really bad one i knew it was coming since ive been super stressed lately but it came out of nowhere so it was still a shock and i couldnt really control it i was a mess crying for fear and shaking my chest hurt so bad i thought i was having heart problems which i know is not the issue for ive been to the hospital and theyve checked all that out not to long ago and ik that if i had a heart issue they would have seen it its all in my mind and that scared me even more that this panic attack can make me feel pain thats so real as if im going to die from a heart attack but i know that its not the case so i calmed down a little enough to drive home my poor grandma was so worried and she tried to comfort me and talk to me but i told her talking makes me feel worse like i cant breath and i also said that even if i told her how i felt and what was really stressing me out she wouldnt understand because she doesnt have anxiety so its like im talking to a wall who basicly can tell me nice words that dont really make my panic and fear go away but make me think about it even more so i had to leave even though i was a little scared to drive home. when i got back home i cried some more my brothers didnt really know what to say i felt bad to see them so worried over me and they couldnt do anything but sit with me and wait i fell asleep for a little bit but when i woke up i was still so tired my body hurt all over from the tense shaking im sore even now my soreness wont go away and my heart still hurts i really hate having to deal with this its all so much to handle at times and im a little depressed about this because its been a while since ive had a full blown panic attack i can control them most of the time but this just came out of nowhere but i had to get it out in a blog help me wrap my minf around everything that happend does anyone else get bad panic attacks like this and if you do what symptoms do you have?? well thanks for reading as always love u guys!! <3
-kate
