At the moment I am feeling thoughtful or even maybe reflective. Today is my 3 year anniversary with my BF i now 3 yrs isnt very long but after what we have been through together it feels a lot longer, and we are stronger and know we are meant to be together. We have accomplished a lot together even through the adversity, and we have bought a house together and have two wonderful puppies. I was in the kitchen preparing a lovely meal for tonite and tryin out recipes i have never used before (please keep your fingers crossed for me) the one i am trying is a chocolate cake and the only way to describe it is it smells like i have a starbucks in my kitchen so promising – except the mixture is rising (GOOD) but it starting to spill over the edge so not sure how it will look! Oh well, but what i wanted to say is whilst i was preparing the food and cleaning up i realised that that is all my life had been reduced to since i dont go back to uni till next year and i dont have a job – for which i am looking for one, but i realised there is no way i could be a house wife – unless i had children to look after and teach i love to inspire and teach kids and help people in general – but stuck in the house with just my puppies for company is driving me insane – I HATE IT – i cant do it yet. And the worse feeling is that i am turning out just like my mother but she had 2 kids by my age! but there we go that was my vent – i am feeling middle aged at only 21 – god that's bad! well i will enjoy tonite and worry about that tomorrow. But dont get me wrong i am not saying that being a house wife or staying at home to look after kids is bad – i am just saying not for me right now – its too soon! i hope you are all well, take care, xx
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That is good to here things are going well with you and your boyfriend. I'm also happy for you that you 2 bought a house together and started a family. I know there dogs but to me its still a family. I look forward to the day my boyfriend and I buy a house and start our family. We just have to figure out what type of dogs we get lol. Well I hope your meal turns out very well for you. That is sweet that you cook for your Boo. I cook a lot for mine also it makes me happy to do it for him. Hang in there with the job hunting beleave me I know it sucks. But there is something out there for you, it takes time but it will come your way.