Hey yall…it\'s ME again! I wish I could have a positive blog for once!!
I just want to put something out there that has been weighing heavily on my heart. Basically I don\'t have any close friends…Well, I do.have a few that I have met here that are AMAZING people and I am thankful for your friendship. I\'m lucky to have you in my life. You have made me laugh and you have listened to my worries and you have given so much support. You ROCK! I hope that I can give all that in return.
What is bothering me tonight is the loss of a friendship that has spanned over 20 years. This person who I called my friend for so many years doesnt think I am worth her time anymore. It has been so hard to maintain a friendship with this person because of my illness, mental health issues and my children keep me busy too. She always wanted to go out and do things and I just couldn\'t. So I guess it is mainly my fault. Although I feel conflicted…if she were any kind of friend, shouldnt she have tried to accomodate me by coming by my house to visit occasionally? Or answer my phone calls? They may not have been that often, but I tried when i could. She got engaged to be married last month and never told me. No phone call, text, not even a message on my Facebook. I found out tonight she posted an announcement on her FB on Valentines Day. Every important event in our lives we always made sure the other person was one of the first to know.
It just hurts that she didnt tell me. Am I expecting too much? Maybe I am being overly sensitive? Am I being a selfish whiner? Am I making this out to be all about me? Maybe it is my own fault that I wasn\'t thought about?
I should just quit playing pity party and be happy for her and just move the hell on. I just miss the friendship we had when we were close.
Thanks for reading friends. I appreciate all of you.
Love to all. XOXO