Well as you know now, my name is Tessa. I have been on here before but was never really able to get into it. I've been writing alot lately so I'm giving it a try. Recently I've been struggling with panic attacks and anxiety. They have been really bad, I always had a few like once a year. Lately though, for the past week they happen every night. Right before I got to sleep I have one and then can't sleep. It's bullshit. I've delt with worse. They are irrational fears and I wish they would just go away.
My boyfriend wont reply to my texts, wont answer my calls and we havn't talked since our last day together in person. So stupid, why do men never text or call. It's like they want you to go crazy thinking about what they are doing, why they are ignoring you and most of all, who the hell are they with that takes up all their time. It makes me paranoid because I know he always has his phone with him and always replies and answers other peoples calls. Lest when I was around him for four or five days he was. Uhg anyways,,,
My mother is angry with me because I called her a drunk, while she was drunk. I know she hates it but I hate when she talks crap about my family so I guess she went to bed even with me. I recently introduced my sister to this site. It upsets me that she needs something like this but it should help a little, it does me. If you read this, I love you and I am sorry you have to go through this.
Ehhhh What else to say. If I told you about my life you would think I'm lying hahah. It's pretty upsetting stuff. I'll gain some bravery and share a whole bunch though.. Just give me time. For now I guess it's fairwell.