Tonight I feel sad, coz I know i'm weak
and nothing I can do or say will help me out
seeing everything in black and white
just filling me with more doubt
its fight of flight.
Ground yourself, erica said.
Feel your feet on the floor
you do not need to hurt anymore.
tonight I feel angry, tonight i feel fury
I feel an incredible urge to cut
I can visualise my pain on the canvas that is my arm
inside I hear my mother tut
i'm trying to move on, i'm trying to grow up
but inside i'm terrified, I've never felt so lost
it's like i've left my heart behind,
now all all I am is a model frame of the girl they call Naomi.
That silly girl, that quiet girl
the one who walks alone
the one who sits in silence
the one who blushes scarlet
the one you made fun of
the one you abused
the one who's life you changed forever.
This paragraph has been erased countless times
I need to vent something out
but words cannot describe it
nothing can cover how I feel
no words, no pain, nobody.
I want to be heard but, yet I speak so quietly
I hurt so bad, but nobody heals me
I feel so alone, with people all 'round me
sat here tonight over flowing with tears
just want to die now
no more games
I want to go home.