I know I'm no joe cool and I dont have joe cools social suave and status.
So I do have to work harder than MOST people.
And you know waht?
Getting rejected since birth doesnt make it any easier as you get older.
You'd think that if you get rejected soo many times that you'd be unfazed. Well thats wrong!
Case rejection reminds me why I dont reach out to anyone and reminds me why I am still single and reminds me why I dont get any play WHICH reminds me why I do dope. Cause if I cant get any lovin from the gals that are mostly looking for Joe Cool and Rico Suave then I'd rather die over dosing.
Please dont tell me that something good will come around from me cause thats what I heard FUCKIN 10 years ago and FUCKIN 10 years b4 that.
All you pretty women out there can go rot and die finding you Ken barbie doll. ALL YOU GO FUCK YOURSELVES DIE. YOU ALL ARE FUCKIN VAIN BITCHES THAT THINK YOU ARE BETTER THAN ME. YEAH I MAY NOT BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU BUT YOU CAN GOOD DIE CAUSE I HAVE NO LOVE FOR YOU OR ANYONE. FUCK THIS SHIT.
And you all demean me as some kind of fuckin undesireable creature cause i have to go find some hooker to get any intimacy? Sure its paid for, but at least i get what i need that none of you bitches think I'm good enough for. All you cunts never think I am good enough! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!at least i left heroine.
heroine never left me!
FUCK OFFF!
love,
REJECTED
“cant take rejection of any format”
love me or leave me to die
yeah. we'll see?
sorry.
stario has mood swings and hes
lonely.
stario tried to date for the first time
since his love affair with dope ended and stario encountered rejection.
stario not able to deal with rjection.
stario just needs to get laid. PERIOD.
BJS are best.
WOMEN only.
no fags please.
if you got something bad to say cause you are offenede.
go fuck yourself.
dont comment.
got something good to say, then comment.
no response?
then go fuck yourself.
hey look?
I am commenting myself.
how fun.
so many people around here.
but stario not good enough.
if you tell me someone will come my way.
you can go fuck yourself too.
if you tell me someone will come my way.
you can go fuck yourself too.
no games please.
just action.
tell me to go get a hooker?
go fuck yourself and die!
you think Im crazy or worthless.
you feel emarrased for me?
go fuck yourself.
oh wait?
you are getting fucked?
well.
I hope you two die in a car crash today!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you are reading these word….go back and do your drugs!!!
theres no cure for lonliness like addiction.
addiction wont leave you.
addiction never rejects you.
addiction will fuck you when you need it.
and give you blow jobs when you need it.
addiction will always be by your side.
addiciton will always love you till the day you die.
life is too short to get couped up in the bullshit of rejection and the shit people put you through.
go get high. go get high.
you will feel much better.
at least you need the physical intimacy of another human being when you are high, cause you are feeling too good to need it.
rehab is for quitters.
live your life.
do drugs if you want to.
hot damn I am writing to my self again.
see how many people give ashit about you?
no one gives a shit about you.
this is my world.
welcome to my world.
carnival of souls.
living among the dead.
i should pretend to be popular and be outspoken, maybe i can get some play at a bar??
all you gotta do is be LOUD and TALK LOUD and SHOW OFF and pretend, pretend pretend.
thats what people want to see at a bar.
it is all about looks.
bar people suck.
people who go to bars suck.
hanging out at a bar sucks.
normal chics SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
normal chics should FUCKIN DIE!!!!
You know, for real……….
I have been OK with myself for a very long while…..
I found myself at the age of 28.
And its OK to be by yourself.
I have that contentment.
I know who I am.
And I know where I want to go.
But theres are points in your human life where you need that human touch.
It doesnt have to be everyday.
But there are those once in a while basic human needs that you shouldnt ever apologize for.
And when the time comes where you have to seek it out……….
It can remind you of who you are to other people.
Maybe most times bad.
Maybe a handful times good.
Inside yourself,..you are fine and you know where you're at……
And if you cant at least find that affirmation of feeling attractive or loved by another human being…..
Well, it can be glorious sickly hell……via “Virginia Tech Massacre”.
And so my friend, to reach out and be denied of a basic human need is not a positive self affirmed feeling.
It doesnt have to be everyday. Cause most everyday we are really very good by ourselves, until that periodic primal calling.
Understand that this is why by nature, boys fight. Pent up unreleased hormones.
It takes another to heal to another.
Just life.
ok…….
I feel better.
*hugz*