I feel like anxiety, panic, and depression is taking over my life. I miss who I used to be. I used to be outgoing, funny, engaging. Now I'm just sad. I'm anxious ALL the time. I seclude myself because I'm scared of everything, but I don't know what I'm scared of. No one that hasn't experienced it understands. My family thinks I just need to suck it up, everyone feels anxiety. Or people compare me to their friends grandmas sister uncles daughter who is EXACTLY like me and they are doing just fine. It's so frustrating. I've been in treatment off and on for ten years. My biggest fear is that I'm broken and I'll never be fixed. Psychiatrists treat you like a guinee pig; here just try this med, oh that didn't work, try this. This is the biggest test of my faith I've ever been through. God says he will never give us more than we can handle but I feel like my mind body and soul is screaming to God..It's too much! How can I fulfill your will for me if I'm trapped by this. My mind feels like it's not my own. I feel like my mind and body are betraying me. I've tried everything, I pray every day, I read inspirational messages, listen to music, excersise, nothing seems to help. I just want to be better. My chest hurts every day. I have pain all over my body every day. I have stabbing pains in my brain that feel like pins and needles. My mind is constantly racing and looks for things to worry about. Every day all day I feel that feeling of when you're about to crash your car and you know it's coming and there's nothing you can do. I miss me.