I wrote a blog yesterday about my day, but without any concrete describing… I dont know if its wrong to do it know and to manifest my fear for the thing now and made it worse… but now I decide to write it.
Im a bee keeper for hobby and yesterday I made an open day for anyone, who want to look with me into my hives and for talk. It was planned as an event of two hours, but from the last person I say bye after almost 5 hours. The people ask many questions, were excited by my bees and thanks me and made me so much compliments for my style of explaining and showing. I felt great for that. Esspecially because I dont have to do much with people and are most time on my own now and felt me most of the time very useless and small… It was 14 people there – many more than I exspected. There were also some kids with. The boys from the family was yellowed at beginning about bees sitting and crawling over him but then so excited to look into the hives and finding the queen etc. The old people had a great time too and I see many smiles and we have many laughs. It was such a beautiful day.
But heres my problem. A thing happened, which come in my mind again and again. There was 3 kids with a women (friend of a friend of mine…) their, who doesnt speak german. I dont know the kids, but im sure, there were refugees. They was very anxious about the bees and I tried to show them anyways something, but with a bit more distance than the others. Mostly kids are a bit anxious at beginning but then they started to be enjoy the bees very much and find it funny to have them on their bodies and see the masses of bees in the hives while staying in flying bees all around them. But the second time the girl get frightened and stepped fastly back. Nobody expected such a reaction. So they stomped into my tool-box where I have my equipment for the bees. Public grounds are already a big problem for me, because the potentially contaminated with fecies of dogs ect. And shoes walk over these grounds… and she stomped into my box, where tools and stuff are in, which I have to use constantly. (next time tuesdays…) So I feared, the stuff in their is now contaminated by the shoe of the girl… Maybe I would overcame this, because the stuff in there lies often on the meadow where my hives are – so there is maybe not a big difference to what happenes now? I really asking me this question and wish, that someone could answer it to me… 🙁 But in this case, its not only the shoe with the potential fecies on it. The problem is, that she is a refugee. I dont know if you know, but we got very many of them in Germany since last year and it was a very uncontrolled situation. So it happened, that diseases, which dont exist in Germany anymore and are notifiable, arised again in some parts of Germany, what was written in the newspaper several times. Because nearly no one of the immigrants here were medically checked last year. Not epidemy here, but you cant say, how many people walking around here with notifiable illness, which dont going to the doc and their come constantly notifications of bad conditions of hygiene and health in refugee camps here. So Im scared much more about her shoes than any other shoes… Even if in my small town we dont got big camps, its in my mind much the same. I would overcome it much easier, if one of the other people stomp into the box…
Thats my problem now… written it, I feel very bad now… the box with stuff in it isnt as easy to clean and I really dont know, what I have to do now… I feel so quesey now, thinking about this… 🙁