I’ve been dealing with health issues for years. I had surgery almost 4 months ago to fix one issue now I’m dealing with another. I have also gain weight since my surgery which hasn’t helped. I feel sick everyday and I’m just so worn out. So tired of feeling so ill all the time. I am not working as much as I used to and feel like I have just fallen in this rut. I don’t go anywhere I just sit here and sleep or just feel so sick I can barely do anything. My depression is getting worse and worse. I feel so hopeless. I just want to be well. I want to spent time with my kids and not have to worry about feeling so fuckng sick all the time. My son is also having some health issues so I’m trying to get that felt with as well. I feel like the worst mom in the world to have allowed him to get sick. I feel so incompetent, so useless, so pitiful, so pathetic. I’m sick of doctors being so fuckng dismissive. Had they not been I would have had all this fixed years ago. I want to be well. I need to be well for my kids… for me… please give me the strength to endure this long process. I know that the end results of the journey to good health will be great… just getting there is so fucking hard. I just want to be well. Bad enough my mental state is so unstable I don’t need my physical state to be all messed up. It too much to handle sometimes. I don’t want to be sick anymore. I need to be there for my kids. I hate being sick. ='(