Here we go. My name is Billy and I’m 25 years old. I’ve been single my entire life. I knew I was gay when I was twelve. I was a curious teenager around 15 who was curious and slept with one person in my entire life. This continued until I was about 20. I joined the military at the age of 19. At this point in my life I’m searching for someone to make feel whole. I’m very independent. Great job, money, friends, physical fit, what more can someone ask for. It’s been 5 years since I have had sex. I have a extremely high sex drive. Here comes the down side. Most people with a high sex drive can have fun and have sex. I cannot. I’m a really emotional person and I long for a connection. Trying to find someone whom feels the same is extremely hard. I flirt with guys on Grindr. I flirt with guys at the bar. When it comes to sex I bail. I freeze up I get inside my head and I run. It makes me feel horrible because I want some type of physical interactions in my life. Maybe I’m lost and confused but I’m tired of feeling this way.Feeling the anxiety attacks coming when someone says I look great and sexy and feeling depressed because I choose to run is no way to live life. Any advice for my confused soul.
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