I know, I know. Looking at the title, you’re probably thinking, “love can be cheesy”, right? But it can also be a super exciting adventure! Next Tuesday I’ll be at the two week mark and it’s still really hard to believe this is happening. I mean, to be in a committed relationship?! That’s crazy talk, yet the adrenaline rush is like drinking a Big Gulp full of coffee with 3-4 shots (or a whole pack of Monsters)! I’m not used to the happiness. I’m not. I feel like a bomb just dropped on my world (like those cheesy WWII short films) and my emotions are everywhere. I might be allowed to have a phone soon, so I’ll be able to chat and whatnot. She’s gorgeous and when we go on that date, it’ll be so exciting! Sure, she’s a few hours away (and probably really cold, ’cause Denver), but she’s a good pal and an even better girlfriend (that’s getting a little easier to say, now). I-I can’t concentrate well, but I just love her so much! Turns out I like different sides of people (I’d only go for, like-and don’t laugh at this too much-nerds or computer/game geeks, but she’s different and I like it much better). She’s also supportive of the gender fluid thing, so that’s cool, too. Graduation’s real soon and I’ll be a new man/woman/person (depends on where I’m at that day, I guess) and I think my personality and confidence is growing, too. I tried to ignore my feelings before, but, you know what? This is really nice. The bomb’s really nice. And I hated this love shit before, but I think I might actually be in love. Love!!! Am I going insane or is this natural? I wish I knew. My exes I only got with ’cause I was lonely and I had little feelings for them, but I feel like I could spend the rest of my life with her. She’s on my mind a lot and it’s really confusing. I’m going with it, but I’m worried. I’m doing what I can to trust her, but it’s really hard. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I trust her more than I trust anyone else, but I’m still worried. But, again, the bomb dropped and now I’m scattered in the ashes of confusion and bursting feelings.
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