Some of you know i have been coming off Diazepam for several years now.

About 9 years ago i went to my doctor and asked for Diazepam as i knew it was the only thing that would help me, all other meds did nothing to ease the anxiety and panic. He agreed to give them to me as i said i knew what prolonged use of it would do to me (not knowing the withdrawal though).

3 Years ago i decided to come off it as it was not helping me anymore and just making things worse. Now i found out what a bitch it was to get off of it, within a few days i would start sweating, anxiety levels went through the roof, constant disassociation, visual distrubances and inabilty to focus on anything. Sometimes i would be shaking and around the 2 week point all hell would break loose, i would be hit with  panic attacks that would last for 5-6 hours and nothing i did eased it. For up to 12 weeks from a drop i would be constantly anxious and having 10 or more panic attacks a day.

This is how it has gone on all through the coming off of it although due to another med i was prescribed the last 2 have been easier.

Today i am free of diazepam and will never ever take it again. I am extremely pleased with myself for accomplishing this as i have been told by a doctor and psychiatrist that some people never get off it as it s too hard and that it is very like heroin withdrawal. It has been the hardest thing i have ever done and even though i have said lots of times "i am not doing that again" after a drop, i have stuck with it and overcome all obstacles.

A determined mind will ultimately win in the end.