Just had a bit of a mini meltdown or maybe now that I think about it more a not so mini melt down. I knew I was acting irrational but my emotions were taking over anyway. How frustrating this feeling can be. When you know you are totally wrong but can't stop. Thank goodness I snapped out of it in not too much time but I am left feeling exhausted by it anyway.
One thing I will say about these tough experiences is that there is a lot to learn from them; about myself and the nature of the disorder. I feel like there is a lot I could write about it all but I think I am going to have to come back to revisit it once I have some distance and better perspective from it all.
One thing I do know that it has to do with is that I get a bit of hysteria when things are changed, I always have. I see now this is a part of my OCD. Oh well something else to work on but also a new opportunity to grow.
I think I can only see this somewhat clearly because of the therapy I have been doing, if not I think I might have lasted longer in my hysteria and sadness. Thank god for good therapists. (oh yeah and meds too…lol)
Hope everyone is doing well. So far many of the experiences I have shared on the blog others could relate to I have a sneaking suspicion this issue probably won’t be an exception. Regardless thank you everyone for your support. Just writing and knowing you are all out there helps me to breathe a little easier 🙂