So I was mentioning to my bf how I’m not feeling well and don’t want to be at work right now… he replied by saying “don’t take this the wrong way but I feel the same way. I just don’t feel the need to constantly tell you”. I didn’t go on a rant as I usually do that all I said. I just wanted him to give me some words of encouragement, send me a funny line, anything… but no. Apparently I’m just a whiner and complainer. I already feel that way as it is and for him to kind of confirm that males me feel even more like shit. I have stopped talking to a lot of people because I didn’t want to sound like I was constantly complaining and feeling sorry for myself. I do feel the need to vent, rant and rave. Why not. If I hold all that in then it just eats me up alive having all the at negative energy stored up inside and ready to explode. That’s why I come here to type my barley understandable raves. I feel like such an idiot. Like I just dwell on stupid shot and make life harder on myself. I know I do. I just wish I had more support at home and with my friends. I have be isolating myself and I’m just sick of having to do that because I’m trying to spare people of me and my “ways” sometimes I do wish I was on an island. At least I’d feel more comfortable in my own skin and not worry about being judged. *sigh*