Hey person who is likely struggling with their tailor-made dilemmas.

It’s tough thinking of ways to do better for yourself while you feel stuck. And it’s tough working through them if you can think of ways you could do better for yourself.

And it’s tough to find a balance between forcing yourself to try to feel better and toxic positivity that might drive you to bottle your emotions — or whatever imbalance adapting your mental state may cause.

Another example might be isolating yourself so you don’t have to deal with people who aren’t sensitive to every trigger, but that makes it challenging to connect with others in the future.

Every struggle and coping mechanism have interesting trade-offs.

I think it could be worthwhile to build an effective self-checkin list that might help someone determine if they’re leaning too far one way or the other.

Running away in fear of depression or anxiety towards positive thinking may help you cope with the moment, but your future self appreciates your consideration very much.

Instead of running, if there was a tool to help you find the center and support your steady pace back to it – could we do a better job of working through our emotions in those tough moments instead of generating more trauma because we have experienced trauma because we have experienced trauma because we have experienced trauma…

If I make a dominos pun and call us ‘trauminos’ will you keep reading? Haha

I’m (still) a 20-something in the United States, and I think we’ve inherited a mess of a society in the dawn of a technological revolution, and, tbh, if you’re here in 2022 – shit, I’m proud of you for getting here. Things are going to get better, but the world is an absolute madhouse right now. We all have COLLECTIVE trauma, and we’ve seen a counter to corporate ‘business as usual’ with what I’ve heard people calling “The Great Resignation”.

It’s not exactly perfect anywhere, but here in The States, I’m certain things could have gone better. But the fact that you’re still here means that we can still get things to go better for us.

I operate myself on few fundamentals now.

1) Stay alive.

2) Honor the dead.

3) Save the world.

Some days, it’s hard to sit with #1, but I am working it out as I go. No matter how bad it gets in my head, I equate ending my life to a surrender, and I am God damn too stubborn as all hell to surrender.

Honoring the dead ensures I am not overcome with grief for that whose or which’s time has already come, and I can exist in a more productive space as well as offer energy or blessings to any spirit entity that may need support. Must be mindful of #1 because energy can work in unique ways.

With all the stubbornness and respect back from the dead, I work out ways to save the world.

Some people might be offended if I implied they needed saving.

But if you don’t intuitively understand how we could all do better when we support each other, I would guess there’s some lingering demons that would do well to be exercised.

If you were someone who had a way to save the world all worked out in your head, but knew you couldn’t do it alone, what would you do?

I’ve struggled my whole life to maintain any kind of relationship. People get sick of me, or I can’t hold their attention. Or, difficult of all, I think I have a friend and if they move or the situation changes, the next time I see them, I feel like an alien. I don’t fit the mould. I don’t say or do the right things, and I’ve given so much energy to people who would be willing to just take advantage of me or take me for granted. I am this crazy amazing person, and I see the reflection of myself in the way that I’ve been treated and I think that person is me, my vulnerability made me lesser and exploitable and not worthy of genuine consideration and attention.

It’s been rough.

My heart hurts.

But that person in the mirror wasn’t a proper reflection. I will do my best now to lay that reflection-person to rest and honor the dead, and move forward with the life that I still have.