The last few days have been a whirl wind – some good parts, some bad.  I have been extremely busy at work since the event I have been helping to plan occurred on Sunday.  It was a major success with over 320,000 spectators.  I can’t tell you how satisfying and happy that made me!  Of course my mood is brought down again when I come home – house is dirty, clothes everywhere.  Husband still stting at home with the dog doing minimal house work and pretty much expecting me to make dinner after my long hard days at work.  He claims I make it better cause I "make it with love."  No better way to put me into a bad mood than to feel like I’m the only one carrying the weight around here.  I just tried to tell him of my disturbing dreams and the response I got was "yes but I’m watching this right now," referring to the movie he is watching.  Isn’t that a piece of irony – I feel happy, accomplished and satisfied at work but unhappy, defeated and exhausted at home. 

Now on to the dream…  The last couple of nights I have been having very odd dreams that I remember very vividly.  Last night’s was the most disturbing.  I was engaged and ended up being persuaded by this random guy who kept pursing me to have sex with him.  I felt guilty and terrible for doing it only to find out he used me and had sex with thousands of other women and ended up being some sadistic stalker who got pleasure out of destroying people’s lives.  In turn I ended up with numerous STDs and then woke up.  Weird… I wonder what it could mean?  I haven’t had really disturbing dreams like that since I was a "tween" before removing my psycho dad from my life.  Wow… reading these posts make me sound like someone with serious issues though I’m actually a normal person facing hard times. Any thoughts?