If I dont work I will lose my home.

I have no friends or family.

:I make too much” to receive any kind of benefits.   I don’t make enough to even pay for the lowest amount of insurance.

I cannot for to get sick I can’t afford to take A-day off.  I’m constantly living on the edge.

If I lose everything…  There’s nothing left.

I get 2 weeks vacation time which I don’t get to use because I have to cash that in so I can pay for some of my heat in the Winter and I pray that it’s not gonna be so cold out each year.

I do not qualify for heating help because again…”I make to much”

I don’t qualify for food stamps or food pantries because “I make to much”

Food or bill ? food or bill?

I can’t get health care because “I make to much

I can’t get health care because it’s a little over half what I make a week… they take it out weekly

I have a shadow in my last mammogram.  I have ovaries that are suppose to come out two years ago.

But I cant get help.

I have severe depression and anxiety which affects my breathing actually fractured my Thorax because of it.

Psychologists and therapists although I cant rwally afford them out of pocket…. They won’t touch me because I don’t have insurance. They don’t wanna look at me.

One therapist I did get to see  looked at me… I think he knew he couldnt help me… He made an appointment for me 2 weeks later I showed up I sat in the office for a 1/2 hour nobody was there he never came out…. My anxiety told me he didn’t wanna see me so I left. I text messaged him and I told him that we had the employment.

I was there . He never responded .

I spend $650 just to be able to work.

400 in gas alone.. I can’t get a job close by.

Social services does not when I hear it because I make too much even though I told them I would have to sleep in the parking lot to be able to afford my bills…. If I turned off my electricity and my heat. They dont care.

My house is falling down around me.

My kitchen sink detached I can’t use that.

My toilet I flush with a bucket.. Because that wont-work either.

I have 3 lines of electric down my house… Lie refrigerator broke that no longer works. I can’t use my stove because the electric lines down. The last line available that I have runs my furnace hot water and my phone washer and three plugs I have left for light.

My video clip keeps on breaking down the only way I can get to work.. When it snows I have to sleep here because it’s too dangerous… I can’t drive-through the mountains in the snow that far.

I work 42 hours a week but I’m gone for over 16 hours.    I travel 12 hours week all together  For a job that a barely can get by.

No time to make friends no time for significant other even though I have trust issues and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to have somebody in my life again….. The only person that I let in after really rough time took what was left from me.

Shut me off ghosted me if you know what that is. I am the walking dead. The only thing that I had to look forward to.

It to try growing plants for food but you need time to be able to garden. You need time to gather food. I don’t have time I have work and if I’m not working I’m so exhausted I could barely even pick up my house. I go home I see my animals I go to sleep. On Monday a cat snagged an egg… Dog sound it broke it… Cat decided to play with egg shells…. It’s still all over my carpet just because I don’t have the time to vacuum.

I’m in pain every day my back hurts constantly. My heels hurt constantly just to walk my knees hurt constantly.

Cant afford disability … How can I for that if I can’t even afford to look on what I make now I would have even less. I feel hopeless and I have no help… If I wanna visit my family I have to go to the graveyard.

I obviously need Therapy and help and medication.

I started to self medicate myself. I used to be prescribed valium… its helps a little  When I’m all wound up… It won’t even make a Dent

I used to be given kolonpin that didn’t do anything neither.  But I used to live with my ex who gave me excited I so badd where I couldn’t breathe nothing was helping me.

I don’t know what to do I don’t know where to turn I can’t get any help nobody will help me I don’t have any money…. I hate myself and I hate everybody