If I dont work I will lose my home.
I have no friends or family.
:I make too much” to receive any kind of benefits. I don’t make enough to even pay for the lowest amount of insurance.
I cannot for to get sick I can’t afford to take A-day off. I’m constantly living on the edge.
If I lose everything… There’s nothing left.
I get 2 weeks vacation time which I don’t get to use because I have to cash that in so I can pay for some of my heat in the Winter and I pray that it’s not gonna be so cold out each year.
I do not qualify for heating help because again…”I make to much”
I don’t qualify for food stamps or food pantries because “I make to much”
Food or bill ? food or bill?
I can’t get health care because “I make to much
I can’t get health care because it’s a little over half what I make a week… they take it out weekly
I have a shadow in my last mammogram. I have ovaries that are suppose to come out two years ago.
But I cant get help.
I have severe depression and anxiety which affects my breathing actually fractured my Thorax because of it.
Psychologists and therapists although I cant rwally afford them out of pocket…. They won’t touch me because I don’t have insurance. They don’t wanna look at me.
One therapist I did get to see looked at me… I think he knew he couldnt help me… He made an appointment for me 2 weeks later I showed up I sat in the office for a 1/2 hour nobody was there he never came out…. My anxiety told me he didn’t wanna see me so I left. I text messaged him and I told him that we had the employment.
I was there . He never responded .
I spend $650 just to be able to work.
400 in gas alone.. I can’t get a job close by.
Social services does not when I hear it because I make too much even though I told them I would have to sleep in the parking lot to be able to afford my bills…. If I turned off my electricity and my heat. They dont care.
My house is falling down around me.
My kitchen sink detached I can’t use that.
My toilet I flush with a bucket.. Because that wont-work either.
I have 3 lines of electric down my house… Lie refrigerator broke that no longer works. I can’t use my stove because the electric lines down. The last line available that I have runs my furnace hot water and my phone washer and three plugs I have left for light.
My video clip keeps on breaking down the only way I can get to work.. When it snows I have to sleep here because it’s too dangerous… I can’t drive-through the mountains in the snow that far.
I work 42 hours a week but I’m gone for over 16 hours. I travel 12 hours week all together For a job that a barely can get by.
No time to make friends no time for significant other even though I have trust issues and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to have somebody in my life again….. The only person that I let in after really rough time took what was left from me.
Shut me off ghosted me if you know what that is. I am the walking dead. The only thing that I had to look forward to.
It to try growing plants for food but you need time to be able to garden. You need time to gather food. I don’t have time I have work and if I’m not working I’m so exhausted I could barely even pick up my house. I go home I see my animals I go to sleep. On Monday a cat snagged an egg… Dog sound it broke it… Cat decided to play with egg shells…. It’s still all over my carpet just because I don’t have the time to vacuum.
I’m in pain every day my back hurts constantly. My heels hurt constantly just to walk my knees hurt constantly.
Cant afford disability … How can I for that if I can’t even afford to look on what I make now I would have even less. I feel hopeless and I have no help… If I wanna visit my family I have to go to the graveyard.
I obviously need Therapy and help and medication.
I started to self medicate myself. I used to be prescribed valium… its helps a little When I’m all wound up… It won’t even make a Dent
I used to be given kolonpin that didn’t do anything neither. But I used to live with my ex who gave me excited I so badd where I couldn’t breathe nothing was helping me.
I don’t know what to do I don’t know where to turn I can’t get any help nobody will help me I don’t have any money…. I hate myself and I hate everybody