My cat was diagnosed with Thymoma on an X-ray on the day before Thanksgiving.  Between Thanksgiving and now we have been in and out of the vets office, making end of life plans, and in between specialist.  I have been torn with such immense grief and anxiety and depression.

On 12/12 we saw a radiologist. They could do three rounds of SRS radiation. I got home and researched that and it sounded like the results of radiation would radiate his lungs and potentially his heart.  I read where people’s pets included sores.

So, back to the vets office we returned, She said it really is a catch 22, if you don’t do anything you won’t know. We don’t know how long he will live, but if you don’t do surgery he won’t live but days.

We visited a surgeon and they will perform a surgery on Jan 7^th.  She told me once she does the surgery is complete that prognosis is good. I researched this and generally it is a successful surgery but there are some occurrences that cats have issues with fluid in the lungs. I think the surgeon is going to do what she can to make sure he is okay while he is in there. They have to go through the chest. He is 15 years old.

I have had panic attacks lately and the doctor has given me some medication for them.  I just feel a since of dread.  I have been to the pet cemetery to make preparations. I feel like I am sinking.