Hey, it seems like your under a lot of stress and your trying your best, but nothing seems to be working. It makes sense that it’s taking a severe toll on you. Something that has helped me is remembering I live for myself. You don’t owe anyone anything, including success. That’s the beauty of it, you can keep failing, but your bound to succeed in something. You can do this, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but sooner or later, one day, your going to wake up and feel something other than what you are feeling right now. That day is worth living for.