So it’s been a longggg time (maybe couple years) since last being on this, thought I was doing fine, able to cope with just my psychaitrist. How wrong I have been. I have made so many mistakes and living with so many regrets, I have limited friends, which only seems to be getting smaller, I try not to push people away, I feel the need for more friends, more people for support, I no longer see my psych and am no longer on medication. I like to think I’m strong enough to cope without it. It’s getting bad again 🙁 im feeling sooooo lonely, like I have no one  I’ve pushed friendships and relationships away, no one wants someone with bipolar anyways. Im feeling so trapped. Just want to be normal.